love life.

woohoooo…

Anyone really good at biology wanna take this final for me?? thanksss. :)

my smile doesn’t feel, doesn’t look the same as it did when i was in freaking love.

seriously felt like i was on top of the world. i say this now because you always only remember the good…

but, i know…my relationship was shitty…lol.

BLAH!

i used to love the fact that i had an old soul.

but it has become tooo old. i hang out with basically anyone my age and i just don’t feel like i belong.

i told my parents…this is why i will end up dating some 30 year old man. gross…but…i can’t stand the dudes. or the girls my own age. but it has been more so around the age 21-25. still too old for my young ass.

…every time a dude asks me to hang out or something, i should just say no from now on. a waste of my freaking time. i need to raise my standards and become a little bitchier. blahhhh.

p.s. i have a final tomorrow…i hate studying. :( still. lol.

Of course, we all knows that motherfucker smells sweeter than a bowl of steamin’ crawdaddies.

On the bright side, going for thirty minutes is something few people have the patience for, so sticking it out will lead to some payback when period week comes around.

(via kvngrne)

i absolutely love this movie. and jesus. yummy.

and spit them out in the garbage.

(via evoke-emotion)

this has sooo been a thought in my head. =/

randomly popped into my head at 4:20 A.M. 

true shit.

i am so busy thinking about nothing…well…actually…i have a lot on my mind. what am i gonna do??

blah!!!

lol. i have to find a way to outlet all of this sexual energy…i am going nuts. lol.

but i love being sexy. i love being a sexual being.

i’m kinda, sorta an exhibitionist. but this does not get put to use unless i am alone. lol. or wayyyy comfortable with someone. lol. 

it never changes, right? so wrong.

when i was little, me and my dad were ridiculously close. i was quite possibly thee biggest daddy’s girl. my dad did so much for me. he woke me up, made me breakfast and lunch, did my hair, and was just my pal. i wanted to be just like him. i walked like him, dressed like him. lol. yea, he dressed me like a boy. he was the center of my world. 

then…puberty happened. 

boobs popped in, i started to be able to do things on my own…and suddenly, daddy’s little girl was no longer a little girl. i know, you can’t expect to babied forever. not what i wanted. i just wanted the same love.

instead of his little girl, i became this girl with boobs that lives in his house. and oh no, she has sex too?!?! who has his little girl become? gah, i just miss being able to run and hug my daddy and get the hug back…

daddy, i know your little girl isn’t the same. she has curves, can live on her own, and doesn’t need you anymore. but…she still loves you. i just wish you could look at me with the same love in your heart. i wish that you could still look at me as your baby girl sometimes. 

if i had one wish.

i love this song. still. i don’t know why. ray j can’t sing. lol. 

at this moment in my life, i am just…confused.

i don’t know what to do with myself. if i should run around and put myself out there constantly. or just stay at home and be a homebody. i think the only reason i do not put myself out there more is because the people that i am around…just…are not quality friends, most of them. all that we have is bullshit. and…why waste my time with that?? i guess i could go out alone…and maybe i will more often…just need ideas of where to go. but yea. BLAH. 

i am in a mood where i am pitying myself way too much. sorry. i just wish i had friends is all. 

i wish i had someone to love me. =/

i hate this mood that i am in.